Welcome to A Little Bent, a website about living with and overcoming the effects of PTSD.
My name is Diane, and I have PTSD due to childhood abuse. I do my best daily to live this life to the fullest, learning as much as I can about PTSD, anxiety, depression, and all the mental health beasts that come along with it.
Below you will find a series of posts blogging about three PTSD clinical trials in which I participated.
They didn’t end well. While the studies were overseen by research giant NYU School of Medicine, the principal investigator has since been dismissed from NYU. As reported in the New York Times, Alexander Neumeister was cited by the FDA for falsifying documents, subjecting participants to too many studies without enough recovery time between studies, and failure to follow-up with participants after their participation was over. The warning letter stated that those actions put subjects safety at risk.
Additionally, he misappropriated tens of thousands of research dollars. In May he plead guilty to one felony charge and is awaiting sentencing which is scheduled for October 10, 2018.
All of the studies have been tossed and yes, I’m looking for a therapist again because it seems that I can’t type this without shaking, sweaty hands and a pounding heart. I feel like a fool.
If you read through the archives of the blog, you’ll see lots of gushing about NYU, Neumeister, and the studies in general. I feel humiliated and want to pull everything down, but I’m leaving it as it was written. I didn’t know what was really happening at the time.
Expect more posts about PTSD, as was originally intended. And probably some posts about epilepsy and seizures, as epilepsy surgery is on the immediate horizon. Your support, which I see so much of on my Facebook page, is so inspiring to me. <3