The noose is loose…finally

My brain is finally starting to really loosen up from 13 days of hell. At one point I thought I was actually going to have a flashback, but fortunately that never happened…I’m so thankful that it didn’t. I wrote this on Thursday in an attempt […]

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Not feeling well…at all

I have a practice on here of being pretty honest about how I’m feeling. Right now I’m in the middle of a big fat FUBAR event. I am certainly dissociating, and have been for several days now. At first I thought it was just going […]

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White knuckle days

It’s been awhile since I was triggered so hard it took days to come down. Still working on it…tired. I don’t feel like “I got this”, but I know I do. White-knuckle days are just so exhausting.

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Countdown to Drug Trial Two…

I really need to get some sleep…I have to be at the hospital for screening at 8:30. The past few nights my parents have been in my dreams again – not doing anything, not saying anything, just watching me and staring at me. It hasn’t […]

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