Will this never end?

After a couple weeks of those panic-like auras, I had another grand mal seizure at around 4:30 this morning. Only the second one in my life. Chewed up my tongue pretty good, wet the bed, and have a headache. I feel just exhausted. My husband […]

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Open Letter To NYU

Dear NYU, I am angry. I trusted the ethics and reputation of your institution implicitly, and in return I was misled, I was used, and my safety was disregarded by your researchers. And the more I think about some of the things that happened during […]

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PTSD Medical Research Study Experiences

Welcome! This is an essay on the human research subject experience. I have PTSD due to childhood abuse, and after undergoing years of treatment decided I wanted to learn more about my condition, contribute to the cause of finding effective treatments and hopefully find a […]

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The noose is loose…finally

My brain is finally starting to really loosen up from 13 days of hell. At one point I thought I was actually going to have a flashback, but fortunately that never happened…I’m so thankful that it didn’t. I wrote this on Thursday in an attempt […]

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Countdown to Drug Trial Two…

I really need to get some sleep…I have to be at the hospital for screening at 8:30. The past few nights my parents have been in my dreams again – not doing anything, not saying anything, just watching me and staring at me. It hasn’t […]

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Time to Regroup

Taking a little time to regroup after this last round – and to gear up for the next study. It’s hard to believe that this time next week I’ll be back in New York! Once this is all over with I’ll be posting links to […]

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