Is this blog about PTSD, or is it about Epilepsy?

Yes! Well that doesn’t make any sense at all, now does it. The short answer is: both. This blog is about overcoming challenges in life and living with joy.

What’s it like to participate in a PTSD Clinical Study?

I volunteered for three PTSD clinical studies at NYU Langone School of Medicine, and documented the experiences as I went through them – every needle stick, every MRI, every triggering session, every time I peed in a cup. I humbly present this body of work to you for your perusal.

Hours after the final clinical study, then unbeknownst to me, I had my first seizure, thus beginning my next great odyssey – one that has lasted for the past four years: my battle with Epilepsy, culminating with epilepsy surgery: a temporal lobectomy and amygdalohippocampectomy, finally rendering me seizure-free.

Once You’re Diagnosed With PTSD – Can You Ever Really Be HAPPY?

I am living proof that PTSD doesn’t have to mean that your life is over. Epilepsy can be overcome. Whatever challenge is thrown your way, you have it within you to face it, to live your life, to persist.

Live life. Persevere. Keep moving forward. You DESERVE to live a life worth living. You deserve a life filled with joy. And you can have it. It is within you, even if you can’t feel it right now.

Life doesn’t have to be perfect to be magnificent.

Don’t give up. You’re here for a reason. Take what you need, and leave the rest. <3

I am not broken – but a little bent. And that’s ok. There are a lot of us like that. We are numerous, we are STRONG. And we are stronger together.

We can overcome these challenges – and more. Whatever challenges we may face, we can choose to live brilliant lives, full of hope and promise, carved out of disaster and darkness. We are strong, formidable, and deserving. We are survivors, not victims.

You and me. Not broken – but a little bent. Beautiful disasters. Strength incarnate, living life one day, one moment at a time, loving and celebrating each other and our incredible selves and accomplishments. Knocked down, but back up. Each time, every time.

“My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.”
– Maya Angelou

I am here to thrive…and thrive I shall. I’m here to show you that YOU CAN, TOO. And you will! I am so happy you are here, and wish to you a life full of passion, compassion, humor, and style. <3

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Below you will find a series of posts blogging about three NYU PTSD clinical studies in which I participated, beginning first to last. The first study was a brain imaging study in collaboration with Yale University. I was then invited back to participate in two drug trials at NYU, all conducted under the supervision of renown PTSD researcher Dr. Alexander Neumeister.

The studies did not end well.. however medical research is incredibly important, and I hope that this incident does not cast a shadow on the research community as a whole. The vast majority of medical researchers are highly ethical, dedicated individuals who work very hard to come up with solutions to very difficult issues. Medical research is necessary, and without it this world would be a much more difficult place to live in…and we would be much more difficult to live with.