The hard part is over, and I now have in my possession the remainder of my trial medication. I report back to NYU in just under a week for the final fMRI and to turn in my medication dosing diary.
I feel…well, I feel great. Comfortable in my own skin. A feeling I haven’t had in a very long time. Is this the result of the medication or could it be the placebo effect? Again, only time will tell. Whatever it is, I am giving myself permission to enjoy it. 🙂
I reported to CBI early this morning for another round of triggering/imaging before I took my next dose of the trial medication. Blood samples were taken to determine the pre-dose levels of the investigational drug and an enzyme that is responsible for breaking down endocannabinoids in the brain. (I suspect they are measuring my fatty acid amide hydrolase (FAAH) levels)
Dr Neumeister told me that they are in need of more volunteers for this and other PTSD related studies. Some of these studies simply involve brain imaging, while others include the administration of new medications that are being developed to specifically treat PTSD…all based on scientific evidence, not blind theories.
Medical research isn’t for everyone. It’s not easy. But for me, it has been one of the most rewarding and validating things I have ever done…and I’m not done yet.
For those who might be interested in participating in any of these studies, click here to what is available. You can contact NYU regarding the studies through the contact information available on those pages; only you can ultimately decide whether participation is the right choice for you.
Read, ask questions…then ask even more questions. Make an informed decision, and do it with your own well-being in mind.
As for me? I have the next five days all to myself, so I’m going to explore this great city! It’s still a little odd not feeling compelled to hole up in my hotel room…but if things become overwhelming, as they often do, I am perfectly comfortable in giving myself all the quiet time I need to regroup.
Onward is becoming my new mantra.