So the dates are set, tickets are booked and I’m a ‘go’ for launch. And I’m more than a little nervous.
As some of you are aware, I took part in a clinical research study several months ago. In a collaborative effort between NYU and Yale, I underwent a series of extensive physical and psychological evaluations as well as MRI and PET scans of my brain.
The resulting data reaffirmed my previous diagnosis of chronic, treatment-resistant PTSD. The brain images revealed the presence of specific biological changes in the brain itself which are the direct result of experiencing extremely stressful and traumatic events over an extended period of time, and according to the lead investigator, have caused long-lasting effects on my brain functions.
On the bright side, he also stated having such a “large biological foundation” also presented a better opportunity for treatment.
I have been invited to participate in two clinical studies for medications that are being specifically developed to treat the symptoms of PTSD which are caused by these abnormal brain functions, and am excited for the opportunity!
Unfortunately, this means I will be white-knuckling it again over the next couple of weeks, coming off of my medications one more time. This is my fifth (and hopefully final) round of this, so I know how it will affect me – it will suck, but I’ll be ok.
It also means three weeks away from home, 20 hours on a plane, more tests and brain scans…and when it’s all said and done, a grand total of 7 hours of deliberate “triggering” sessions. Ugh.
Nervous, nervous, nervous…but I know everything is going to be ok. If I can just push through these next six weeks I can go back to being my standard issue crazy.