anxiety

Top Ten Things I’ve Learned During PTSD Recovery

Diane
You are not alone I’ve learned that as much as I wanted to isolate myself, connecting with others heals. I’m not going to quote the depressing statistics here, but child abuse is rampant across the globe, as is domestic abuse and rape. The link from trauma to survivor is very personal, but just remember whatever your situation – you are not alone. #metoo I isolated myself for a very long time. It didn’t help me – it hurt. Isolating yourself slows down, if not stops, the healing process. There are numerous online PTSD forums which I’ll link to at the

Overcoming the Burden of Guilt

Diane
When something terrible happens to you that causes you to be constantly fearful or ashamed, a deep level of guilt can begin to take root. Guilt can keep you from seeking out and experiencing the joy you so desperately need to fully heal by making you feel as if you don’t deserve it. Everyone feels guilt once in a while, but if you’re a trauma survivor, it becomes a part of you. Suddenly all the mistakes you’ve ever made (or think you’ve made) start to overwhelm you. You can feel guilty for what you did. You can feel guilty for

10 days.

Diane
10 days. 10 days until I’m admitted into the hospital for neurosurgery and a bit of a lengthy stay. I have seizures that are unable to be controlled by medications, so soon I will be having a surgical procedure that will remove the part of my brain that causes them – but first, they have to locate where exactly that is. So on November 6th I will have electrode grids implanted onto the surface of my brain, be taken off of all of my anti-seizure medication, and be monitored for up to 30 days in the hospital in an attempt

Handling PTSD Anxiety Effectively After Being Triggered

Diane
There were times with PTSD that I would get triggered and get stuck with this nervous energy, a miserable level of anxious energy that I simply could not shake. PTSD anxiety. The form of anxiety that you feel when your fight or flight response is triggered by some form of stimuli. Since there is no actual danger, you are then stuck with nothing to do with all of this nervous energy. Years of living with this issue led me into developing my own very safe and effective routine for dealing with being triggered. What you first need to do is

To be honest…no, I’m not ok.

Diane
I have been debating on whether or not to share my current status here because I try to keep it as positive as possible, and don’t want to disappoint anyone by coming across as weak. On the advice of a very dear, strong friend – I will be honest. I am a bit of a wreck. Since the New York Times story about the canned PTSD studies went to print I’ve been fighting off feelings of guilt and shame. As more articles are published I keep seeing my name and the words childhood sexual abuse, and it is difficult. Quite

NYU – Pfizer Drug Trial: We are a go for launch

Diane
So the dates are set, tickets are booked and I’m a go for launch. As some of you are aware, I took part in a clinical research study several months ago. In a collaborative effort between NYU and Yale, I underwent a series of extensive physical and psychological evaluations as well as MRI and PET imaging of my brain. I have been invited to return and participate in two clinical studies for medications that are being specifically developed to treat the symptoms of PTSD, and am excited for the opportunity to contribute once more. Unfortunately, this means three more weeks

Easing Anxiety Through Mindful Breathing

Diane
With PTSD, you never know when you might be triggered into a bout of unrelenting anxiety. One of the first things to check for when you are trying to release some of the tension in your body is: your breathing. Often, without even knowing it, those with PTSD will “forget” to breath, holding tension and anxiety inside. The sooner you breath it out, the better. Three years of therapy taught me several tools which I have carried with me through my years, a few different methods of trying to steer the ship in another direction when it feels like anxiety

Invitation to Participate in PTSD Drug Trials!

Diane
I’ve been going ’round and ’round in circles in my head over the past few days…and getting nowhere. The results from the brain scans are still sinking in, and have me wondering if it means that I’m going to feel like this forever… I’ve been invited to participate in two drug studies this fall, which should have me excited – and it does in a way – but other ways it has me scared. Again, no meds at all prior to the trial, so I’ll be going through the insomnia/nightmare dance all over again with no option for relief. And